A Poem of My Feelings Today

Feelings While Adopting Internationally
The Roller Coaster 

One day, trying to grab something you want so badly you can taste it but seeing it out of reach,

 knowing that you will get it one day,

but no increased efforts on your part makes it come to you any faster.

Next day, not looking at the thing out of reach

because looking at it only makes you want it more,
and not getting it only makes your heart hurt and tears well up.

Then, glancing at the thing out of reach

realizing how much you really want it,

so you increase your efforts to grab it again.

Only to understand how truly out of reach it is

and that you must wait

until someone gives it to you.

Knowing that they are in no rush to give it to you

no matter

HOW MUCH YOU ASK.

Praying to GOD daily to intervene and make that wait shorter

but not getting the answer you want.

Anger because you feel like even HE is not listening,

but resigned that HIS timing is wise and
patience is needed.

Back to trying to grab something you want that is out of your reach

and continuing this cycle for years.

R. Scott Miskelly